Love, love me do

2009-06-02 - Down

2008-11-14 - Blogging

2008-10-23 - homeschooling

2008-10-10 - For Shan

2008-10-09 - Everly is the bestest

2008-09-26 - Went to work

2008-09-24 - nervous

2008-09-22 - Running/ Pooks

2008-09-17 - I hate giving these titles

2008-09-12 - Literally the worst day of my life

2008-09-08 - Everly is 16 months (tomorrow)

2008-08-24 - blah

2008-08-18 - Jeff is triggering?

2008-08-16 - Jeff is working out (166)

2008-07-31 - Everly almost 15 months

2008-06-02 - Birthday weekend

2008-05-09 - Everly is a year - I am 116

2008-03-04 - Things are so wonderful

2008-01-20 - guilty

2007-12-30 - Christmas

2007-12-20 - 122 - Pookie is 7 months... WOW!

2007-11-24 - 124, long entry

2007-11-05 - Measurements

2007-11-02 - 126 and I love Everly even more

2007-10-17 - Everly is sick

2007-10-15 - Settling in

2007-10-10 - Thanksgiving

2007-10-03 - sick

2007-09-24 - Busy Weekend

2007-09-22 - Into my size 4s!

2007-09-19 - I love our house

2007-09-16 - MOVED!

2007-09-10 - Weekend

2007-09-07 - Update. Everly is 4 months, I am 130

2007-07-04 - Argh

2007-07-03 - Everly's fall

2007-06-27 - Sad

2007-06-26 - Everly's Birth Story (born May 9)

2007-05-08 - Labour might be starting

2007-04-27 - Feeling Good - signed mortgage papers

2007-04-26 - Baby hasn't dropped

2007-04-24 - Irritable

2007-04-22 - Long - nearing the end (38 weeks)

2007-04-16 - The weekend - part 1

2007-04-10 - 24 days left

2007-04-07 - 27 day to go!

2007-04-05 - Shower & Stuff

2007-03-25 - Feeling shitty

2007-03-22 - 34 weeks and feeling crunchy

2007-03-10 - Feeling Awesome 32 weeks

2007-03-04 - 3D

2007-02-27 - 30 weeks and feeling pregnant

2007-02-23 - Shit day

2007-02-17 - baby stuff - 29 weeks

2007-02-14 - 28 week appointment

2007-02-12 - Great weekend

2007-02-06 - DH is bugging me

2007-02-03 - Shan

2007-01-29 - Nice weeked

2007-01-25 - Happy

2007-01-19 - Baby Stuff

2007-01-15 - Excited and Nervous (24 weeks)

2007-01-11 - Feeling really good

2007-01-07 - An Arguement

2007-01-05 - bleh

2007-01-02 - Condo in tip top shape (Happy 2007)

2006-12-23 - Moodiness

2006-12-21 - Midwife

2006-12-19 - Happy feelings

2006-12-18 - 20 weeks

2006-12-13 - Lonely

2006-12-12 - Sad

2006-12-12 - Feeling sick/ Batman

2006-12-10 - Lots of Happy. Some bleh

2006-12-07 - Bad fucking day

2006-11-30 - And Kathy makes 4

2006-11-29 - 17.3 weeks

2006-11-28 - Surgery Weekend

2006-11-25 - Lots of energy, Visit with Jeff

2006-11-24 - Jeff's hernia op

2006-11-19 - Good News about Stacey

2006-11-16 - Crap Mood (15.4 weeks)

2006-11-15 - Feeling my uterus

2006-11-14 - MOoooooo & Theresa

2006-11-12 - Weight, baby & Theresa

2006-11-09 - Better maybe?

2006-11-08 - Fight

2006-11-07 - 14.2 weeks/ Royal Winter Fair

2006-11-03 - Update

2006-10-14 - Still not feeling pregnant

2006-09-27 - Crap

2006-09-23 - Michelle and being pregnant (almost week 8)

2006-09-18 - Week 7

2006-09-15 - Horrible Stomach!

2006-09-14 - Teaching and stuff

2006-09-11 - ugh

2006-09-09 - Feeling Pregnant

2006-09-08 - Morning Sickness?

2006-09-07 - Good stuff

2006-09-06 - Jessica Simpson bb

2006-09-05 - It's confirmed

2006-08-29 - Week 4, day 2

2006-08-27 - 1 Year Anniversary

2006-08-26 - Sureal

2006-08-25 - I am... PREGNANT!

2006-08-21 - Baby please

2006-08-17 - Email from Mich

2006-08-17 - I am horrible - Michelle

2006-08-16 - Apathetic

2006-08-14 - Positivity

2006-08-11 - M in the parking lot

2006-08-10 - My Uncle/ Babies/ The Usual

2006-08-08 - Damn Moods & yeah babies

2006-08-03 - swing

2006-08-02 - Fat & Condo

2006-08-01 - Better Today

2006-07-31 - Anxious

2006-07-26 - Up a step

2006-07-24 - Awesome News

2006-07-20 - Healthy is better than thin

2006-07-18 - I am fat... I really am. Oh well

2006-07-17 - Anxiety

2006-07-16 - Rock Climbing Rules!

2006-07-14 - Rock Climbing with Mich

2006-07-13 - Possibly Pregnant - but probably not

2006-07-12 - Food Notebook helps

2006-07-10 - Food addict

2006-07-09 - Anxiety

2006-07-08 - Get it OFF!

2006-07-07 - PMS caused "relapse"

2006-07-06 - Better

2006-07-05 - Too much BP

2006-07-04 - Must go gym crazy

2006-07-02 - 4 hours...

2006-07-01 - Gym

2006-06-29 - Nightmare

2006-06-28 - Losing, thank goodness

2006-06-26 - It is confirmed. I am fat.

2006-06-26 - Back to work

2006-06-24 - CUBA! "Don't be lazy, Be Crazy!"

2006-06-15 - Cuba Tomorrow

2006-06-14 - 2 days till Cuba!

2006-06-13 - Feeling Fat but fighting it

2006-06-09 - Babies, working out and teaching

2006-06-07 - Getting in shape

2006-06-06 - Must lose for vacation

2006-06-05 - I love mom

2006-06-02 - Dress Rehearsal

2006-06-01 - Fat Feelings

2006-05-30 - Three Weeks to lose

2006-05-29 - So Tired

2006-05-26 - Be Proactive

2006-05-25 - Diet coke, working out, babies

2006-05-23 - self-improvement

2006-05-19 - Who Moved My Cheese

2006-05-18 - Free

2006-05-16 - Stuff

2006-05-15 - Do the right thing

2006-05-13 - What a blow - leaving WM

2006-05-12 - what else: diet, exercise & babies

2006-05-10 - Quest for perfection

2006-05-09 - Had a good monday

2006-05-07 - Paintball with Shan & Jay

2006-05-05 - Exams are over

2006-05-04 - Exams day 2 and Shan

2006-05-03 - Exams Today

2006-05-02 - Exams are soon

2006-05-01 - May 1st.

2006-04-28 - shan plus what else but exercise

2006-04-27 - GRrrrrrrrrrreat Mood!

2006-04-26 - Perfect, or not

2006-04-25 - bad feelings

2006-04-25 - Fitness

2006-04-24 - TAXES

2006-04-21 - worse

2006-04-21 - Jeff sucks ass

2006-04-20 - Intensive Teacher!!!

2006-04-19 - I love teaching

2006-04-18 - Stupid negativity

2006-04-17 - Depressed and fat

2006-04-13 - Almost Easter

2006-04-12 - Long rambling entry

2006-04-11 - Jeff's stupid fucking work

2006-04-10 - Another good weekend!

2006-04-07 - I love to workout

2006-04-06 - Weight thoughts

2006-04-05 - Better Today

2006-04-04 - Shit Mood.

2006-04-02 - Good Weekend again.

2006-03-29 - Great Mood. 132.0

2006-03-28 - Healthier

2006-03-27 - Great Weekend

2006-03-25 - Fun Night with Shan

2006-03-24 - Things are good

2006-03-23 - 132 & measurements

2006-03-22 - Diet needs to improve.

2006-03-20 - Babies...

2006-03-19 - nothing much

2006-03-18 - bleh

2006-03-16 - LONG Entry!

2006-03-14 - Lots of thoughts - good mood

2006-03-13 - Lovely PMS

2006-03-12 - 131.5 and great mood!

2006-03-11 - Good night - still hurting

2006-03-10 - still in pain

2006-03-09 - back pain, shan and percocet

2006-03-09 - Severe Back Pain

2006-03-08 - Sick and sick of Michelle

2006-03-04 - Good Day

2006-03-03 - worrying

2006-03-03 - painful

2006-03-02 - 133.5

2006-03-02 - sick but good mood

2006-02-28 - still sick, but good mood

2006-02-27 - positive thoughts

2006-02-26 - sick

2006-02-24 - short & sweet

2006-02-23 - Good Day I hope

2006-02-22 - Long. OCPD. Good mood

2006-02-16 - Better today

2006-02-15 - down I go

2006-02-14 - sliding

2006-02-12 - Back on Track

2006-02-11 - Good night!

2006-02-10 - same old

2006-02-09 - PMSing

2006-02-08 - Revelation again

2006-02-06 - Good Weekend

2006-02-04 - New Program for Week 4

2006-02-01 - MUST think positive

2006-01-30 - Week 3

2006-01-28 - Healthier & healthier

2006-01-27 - teaching

2006-01-25 - Jeff again

2006-01-25 - teaching & vent

2006-01-24 - Fighting Negative Thoughts

2006-01-23 - W2D1

2006-01-22 - End Week 1

2006-01-19 - Busy Week

2006-01-15 - Week 1

2006-01-10 - Revelations

2006-01-07 - Happy/ Condo colours

2006-01-05 - Love you so much... but you drive me insane!

2006-01-01 - Happy New Year!

2005-12-29 - New Years Diet

2005-12-27 - Final x-mas party

2005-12-25 - Merry Christmas!

2005-12-20 - Must Lose

2005-12-18 - Nice Weekend - New Hair

2005-12-15 - exercise

2005-12-13 - Had it out. All good.

2005-12-10 - Pumped to get in shape

2005-12-07 - Good Things

2005-12-06 - Selfish

2005-12-05 - New Routine!

2005-12-02 - COW

2005-11-27 - Good Weekend

2005-11-25 - -

2005-11-25 - exercise

2005-11-24 - conflicted

2005-11-22 - Exercise

2005-11-19 - Babies

2005-11-18 - I love to exercise

2005-11-15 - Working out

2005-11-14 - Baby Talk - what else

2005-11-11 - Losing is most important.

2005-11-09 - -

2005-11-06 - silent treatment

2005-11-05 - melancholic rambles

2005-11-03 - Loser

2005-11-02 - Weigh In (136.5)

2005-11-02 - Week 6

2005-10-30 - Good weekend

2005-10-29 - Veganish/ Babies

2005-10-27 - Measurments

2005-10-21 - baby fever

2005-10-17 - Babies

2005-10-08 - weight and babies

2005-10-04 - So far so good

2005-10-03 - Mumbo Jumbo

2005-09-30 - Disgustingly FAT

2005-09-28 - Dreams

2005-09-24 - -

2005-09-23 - Sad & Fat

2005-09-21 - Just do it!

2005-09-19 - Coasting along

2005-09-14 - Things are.... GREAT

2005-09-07 - Honeymoon

2005-09-07 - FAT!!!!!!!!

2005-09-05 - Our Wedding

2005-08-24 - 3 more days

2005-08-19 - Artistic Director one day

2005-08-17 - Hate/ Happy

2005-08-15 - nothingness

2005-08-13 - -

2005-08-06 - 127.0

2005-08-05 - purging the pain away

2005-08-05 - ballet school

2005-08-04 - 23 Days

2005-08-02 - lonely thoughts

2005-07-28 - So much guilt

2005-07-27 - Fatty Fat Ass

2005-07-21 - in a hole

2005-07-20 - weirdness

2005-07-15 - Went out with Shan

2005-07-12 - Life is a piece of shit

2005-07-12 - determined

2005-07-09 - Starting to come off

2005-07-08 - Gym/ Terror in London

2005-07-07 - Disgusting Measurements

2005-07-05 - Happy Birthday to Shan!

2005-07-02 - fuck me

2005-07-01 - 2 hours cardio

2005-07-01 - July 1 - new start

2005-06-30 - Gym gym gym ...

2005-06-29 - Selfish he is

2005-06-28 - Into it

2005-06-28 - So FAT!

2005-06-27 - Must lose

2005-06-23 - -

2005-06-21 - what is wrong

2005-06-21 - still depressed

2005-06-18 - bleh

2005-06-16 - Long and sad

2005-06-14 - Today is Shit

2005-06-13 - nothing much

2005-06-12 - Fatter still

2005-06-11 - FAT

2005-06-10 - Babies and lovely message from shan

2005-06-08 - bleh

2005-06-06 - after the show

2005-05-26 - Under 25

2005-05-24 - Got the dress

2005-05-16 - Progress

2005-05-13 - Catch Up

2005-04-29 - check in

2005-04-24 - ok with weight?!

2005-04-22 - Change is starting

2005-04-18 - Stay Positive!

2005-04-15 - BS from Miss. Anne

2005-04-10 - changes

2005-04-03 - nonsense

2005-04-02 - die

2005-04-01 - bodybuilding diet!!!

2005-03-28 - Trying to improve

2005-03-17 - convo w shan

2005-03-17 - 131.0

2005-03-16 - 130.0

2005-03-15 - 131.0

2005-03-12 - Week 1 - meausurements

2005-03-11 - SO FAT (132)

2005-03-10 - It is beginning

2005-03-07 - Beginning

2005-03-04 - FATFATFAT

2005-03-01 - Quickie

2005-02-28 - Long

2005-02-23 - hate

2005-02-21 - bleh

2005-02-10 - 128.0

2005-02-09 - It's working

2005-02-06 - Fat Blob

2005-02-03 - Had it

2005-01-24 - Day One - BFL

2005-01-20 - busy balance

2005-01-16 - 129.5

2005-01-15 - 130

2005-01-11 - Sick & Tired

2005-01-09 - Trying to be happy.

2005-01-06 - brighter

2005-01-03 - deeper and deeper

2005-01-02 - New Year

2004-12-22 - Emptiness

2004-12-09 - Better?

2004-12-06 - Day 1 (again)

2004-12-06 - miserable mondays

2004-12-01 - Starting Over

2004-11-28 - Nothing gets better.

2004-11-21 - gt

2004-11-21 - Long & boring

2004-11-12 - fat

2004-11-06 - Fat Assed Cow!

2004-10-24 - Good Day!

2004-10-23 - -

2004-10-22 - Got Caught

2004-10-22 - Negative

2004-10-19 - Stubbron Weight

2004-10-17 - Week 1 = 127

2004-10-16 - Day 4 (126.5/ measurements)

2004-10-15 - Day 3- 850

2004-10-14 - stupid fucking RAD

2004-10-14 - Day 2 - 450 cals

2004-10-12 - Day 1

2004-10-09 - Renewing Gym Membership

2004-10-07 - lump, no friends, fat

2004-10-05 - Healthy Balance

2004-10-04 - Mon Oct. 4th

2004-10-04 - Pretty Good Weekend

2004-10-02 - loser

2004-10-01 - Tired

2004-09-28 - exhausted

2004-09-27 - ranting

2004-09-26 - perfect please

2004-09-24 - confused

2004-09-15 - sad

2004-09-12 - wedding blues

2004-09-11 - Constant Guilt

2004-09-08 - ENGAGED!

2004-08-18 - uncomfortably numb

2004-08-16 - whatever

2004-08-14 - undeserving

2004-08-13 - It is starting

2004-08-11 - Must LOSE!

2004-08-08 - the fight

2004-08-08 - empty

2004-08-06 - fat ass

2004-08-06 - Back on Track

2004-07-29 - Baby!

2004-07-14 - fat pig

2004-07-13 - not so good

2004-07-07 - loser

2004-06-30 - Must lose 7 pounds

2004-06-30 - Losing Please!

2004-06-29 - Manicky

2004-06-24 - Perfect Please

2004-06-04 - happy and losing

2004-05-23 - things are better

2004-05-07 - condo? 124

2004-05-04 - 125

2004-05-04 - Happy!

2004-05-02 - cycle

2004-05-02 - May is here

2004-04-30 - down

2004-04-28 - Tried to break my foot

2004-04-25 - still alive... unfortunatly

2004-04-24 - die

2004-04-24 - loser

2004-04-20 - I must!

2004-04-18 - numb

2004-04-18 - Fatass

2004-04-14 - rambling and rambling

2004-04-13 - YIPPEE!

2004-04-13 - meh

2004-04-11 - stuck in the middle

2004-04-07 - Better Today

2004-04-06 - stress

2004-04-05 - Bad Day

2004-03-31 - Feeling Better

2004-03-28 - Michelle bugs me

2004-03-27 - Jeff knows all

2004-03-25 - randomness

2004-03-17 - Must get better

2004-03-11 - First day of group

2004-03-11 - Measuring again

2004-03-10 - Letter from Care

2004-03-07 - What a MESS!

2004-03-05 - bored

2004-03-04 - 6 pounds of food out ya go

2004-03-03 - Transform I must

2004-03-03 - zombie

2004-03-02 - Must lose

2004-02-29 - Ciprian Died

2004-02-28 - Die

2004-02-28 - Perfect

2004-02-28 - pain

2004-02-27 - email to jeff

2004-02-27 - I told him

2004-02-26 - worse

2004-02-26 - Andrew

2004-02-26 - Anxiety

2004-02-26 - sinking

2004-02-25 - Lyrics

2004-02-25 - Fat Ass

2004-02-24 - OK Now

2004-02-24 - Festering

2004-02-23 - panick attack

2004-02-23 - stop thinking!

2004-02-23 - comfortably numb

2004-02-22 - die

2004-02-22 - numb

2004-02-22 - worse

2004-02-21 - So Alone

2004-02-20 - BP Day

2004-02-20 - Must Start Losing

2004-02-19 - 123

2004-02-18 - BP Today

2004-02-17 - Perspective

2004-02-16 - Ignoring the bad thoughts

2004-02-16 - It has to end

2004-02-16 - New Week.

2004-02-13 - I want to be sick...?!

2004-02-13 - pig

2004-02-12 - heart

2004-02-10 - sick but not in pain

2004-02-09 - worse

2004-02-09 - pain

2004-02-08 - sort of better

2004-02-08 - so lonely

2004-02-07 - back again

2004-02-06 - i want to die

2004-02-05 - can't take it

2004-02-05 - no words

2004-02-02 - I hope I die

2004-02-02 - all too much

2004-01-31 - Fresh Start

2004-01-31 - breaking point

2004-01-27 - can't think

2004-01-25 - depressed

2004-01-24 - People Notice

2004-01-24 - 119

2004-01-22 - Mooo

2004-01-20 - Day 1

2004-01-18 - Determined

2004-01-18 - I am a cow

2004-01-16 - 120 Again

2004-01-15 - So confused..

2004-01-12 - I didn't fuck up!

2004-01-09 - Purge purge purge

2004-01-09 - Crying

2004-01-08 - Start #2

2004-01-08 - crying and crying

2004-01-05 - Body Hurts

2004-01-02 - Happy New Year - or not

2003-12-28 - Feeling Fat

2003-12-24 - Bad Day! Good Night?

2003-12-23 - When will I be thin?

2003-12-22 - LOTR

2003-12-22 - On Holidays!

2003-12-21 - Ideal Measurements

2003-12-21 - oink

2003-12-20 - Gonna do it

2003-12-19 - all that really matters

2003-12-18 - Even Finally!

2003-12-18 - Ouch

2003-12-17 - Shit

2003-12-16 - blah

2003-12-16 - 3000 Calories Down the Hatch

2003-12-15 - Weird Dream

2003-12-14 - too small- ARGH!

2003-12-14 - snowing

2003-12-13 - Getting Closer

2003-12-12 - Tired

2003-12-11 - Stupid

2003-12-10 - back at it

2003-12-09 - weird

2003-12-08 - I am still fat

2003-12-07 - Boring stuff

2003-12-05 - Good and Bad

2003-12-05 - sucking

2003-12-05 - Early in the morning

2003-12-04 - Barfy

2003-12-03 - revolting

2003-12-02 - No one notices

2003-12-02 - -

2003-12-01 - Compare and Contrast

2003-12-01 - Happy

2003-12-01 - YEAH ME!

2003-11-30 - Obsessed with this diary

2003-11-30 - Old Diaries

2003-11-29 - Good Mood

2003-11-29 - I am a disease

2003-11-29 - drunk

2003-11-28 - I hate naming these

2003-11-28 - Hot Chick

2003-11-27 - dropping history

2003-11-27 - cold

2003-11-26 - Shannon

2003-11-26 - whine

2003-11-25 - Stupid

2003-11-25 - Ribs

2003-11-24 - Perfection

2003-11-23 - Shake shake shake goes my leg

2003-11-23 - Measurements

2003-11-23 - 25 Inches

2003-11-21 - Early in the Morning

2003-11-20 - Fatstill

2003-11-19 - Losing

2003-11-14 - So Tired

2003-11-12 - Doctors Visit

2003-11-11 - Dying

2003-11-10 - shit

2003-11-10 - low

2003-11-09 - unpopular

2003-11-08 - Think Positive

2003-11-07 - alone

2003-11-07 - invalidated

2003-11-07 - money

2003-11-06 - 26 Inches

2003-11-06 - PIG!!!!!!!

2003-11-05 - immobilized/ so happy

2003-11-02 - Halloween

2003-11-02 - too much

2003-10-31 - Happy & Sad

2003-10-30 - Bad

2003-10-29 - Notes

2003-10-28 - Loser

2003-10-27 - Job Issues

2003-10-27 - I want to be crazy

2003-10-26 - Theresa

2003-10-26 - Party

2003-10-25 - Lonely

2003-10-24 - Ouch

2003-10-23 - lose

2003-10-21 - History

2003-10-19 - Horrible Night

2003-10-19 - HATE

2003-10-17 - Memories

2003-10-17 - Debtd

2003-10-15 - The Renunion

2003-10-14 - die

2003-10-13 - So Angry

2003-10-10 - Today

2003-10-08 - Blah Wednesdays

2003-10-08 - Hatred

2003-10-06 - FAT PIG

2003-10-05 - The Start

2003-10-04 - 2 Stoned Shans

2003-09-30 - Cutting at Work

2003-09-29 - Fuck Me

2003-09-28 - emails

2003-09-28 - overwhelmed

2003-09-26 - No Control

2003-09-26 - Binge Purge Cut

2003-09-24 - Later Today

2003-09-24 - I hate me

2003-09-24 - Must Lose

2003-09-21 - Hangover

2003-09-20 - Must Start Now

2003-09-20 - Social Me

2003-09-19 - Worried

2003-09-17 - Th BS Meeting

2003-09-16 - I am Worthless

2003-09-16 - Catcher in the Rye

2003-09-16 - I Heart Shan

2003-09-15 - Monday

2003-09-14 - Blah

2003-09-14 - So Sad

2003-09-13 - Randomness

2003-09-12 - I heart Shan

2003-09-11 - The Letter

2003-09-11 - Slap in the Face

2003-09-10 - I hate me

2003-09-10 - crazy saturday night

2003-09-09 - First Entry & First week of classes